Windborne Change

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See the trees bending in the wind

Their animated silhouettes dance

Through the blinds behind me,

Reflecting on the screen

In front of me.

 

 

Change is in the wind

It tells me.

Fresh air, fresh thoughts,

Fresh life.

 

 

Sometimes the change is easy

On a summer wind.

Sometimes it’s hard,

A blustery wind from across the water

Tossing things around

In the yard, in the street

Against my doors and windows.

 

 

It’s no one knocking

But something deep in my head

Fills with the blowing wind

Wondering who is coming

Who is returning

What new dream is blowing my way

What old dream is about to manifest.

 

 

Let the wind blow

Let it bring what it may

Safe inside,

With my love,

Watching

Waiting

Loving

While the trees do their dance

And the wind knocks at my door.

 

By Deborah E. Dayen

Video taken by me today.

 

Need Help

I used to be able to post a poem as plain text and it would post the way I typed it, single spaced with spaces between the verses.  Now, no matter what I do, I cannot get any poem to post this way.  They are all double spaced with no space between the verses.  Can anyone out there in blog land help me to fix this?  It’s very frustrating.

Dancing On A Summer’s Eve

Summer dance

Summer breezes blew in last night

From somewhere far across the water

Like an infinite stream of warmth

It slowed on it’s circumnavigation

To visit for awhile.

 

It whispered in our ears,

And caressed our bare arms

The palm fronds swayed gently

The banyan tree rustled

As the night sky filled with twinkling stars.

 

We danced a slow dance

To the melody of the breeze

We lifted our faces to the sparkling night sky

Our breath mingled sweetly

With the sweet heat of summer.

By Deborah E. Dayen

Picture from Wave Magazine via Google Images

Fiction: What Lies Beyond, Chapter Two

A couple of months ago I published the first part of a short story ( https://learningtolivelikewaterblog.com/2018/02/17/fiction-what-lies-beyond/ ) I wrote using a writing prompt, an exercise assigned by my small local writers groups.  After we did those we decided to continue our stories, and use a new prompt.  Of course in order to make the previous story gel with the new prompt, I have written this second chapter to connect the two.  I’m not quite finished with the third (and I hope final) chapter, but will publish it when I finish it.  Hope you enjoy my second foray into fiction writing.

 

We walked in about 10 yards, where the cave took a bend to the left. As we went around the bend, the cave opened up a bit. There laying on an old, dirty blanket was Eli’s friend Archie. Buster sat next to him. After a Eli made few attempts to wake him, his eyes opened. He looked startled to see me, and in an agitated raspy voice began to angrily ask Eli who I was and why I was there. Eli assured him that I was “ok.”

“This is the attorney I told you about yesterday. She’s going to help you. She’s one of the good guys….” Archie didn’t seem to take much comfort in Eli’s words. As he talked he reached between he and buster, and put his hand on an old brown leather bag, the kind of bag sometimes known as a “go bag”. Kind of yesterday’s duffel bag. He looked at Eli, asking “Did you tell him….?”

Eli shook his head. “No, Arch. She doesn’t know anything but you’re going to have to tell her now. We need to get you help, and we need to deal with the bag.” Eli motioned for me to sit down, on an old crate that I hoped would not fall apart under me.

“Well,” Archie began, “I was in the alley behind 53rd St and 4th,, you know, dumpster diving, 3 nights ago. Looking for cans, or anything else. I heard a couple of guys out in the alley, close by. Froze up silent…didn’t want anyone horning in on my cans. They were talking and kinda laughing about conning some mob guys out of a bunch of money. Then I heard a car diving down the alley. Next thing I know the bag is landing on top of my head. I grabbed it and flung it into the corner, shut off my flashlight, just as a guy followed the bag and fell in! Guns were firing! Bullets hitting the dumpster! I was scared shitless, man. But finally the car drove off. Left me fuckin’ shakin.”

It was kinda nasty in that dumpster”, he continued. “Probably stunk to high heaven, though I lost my sense of smell years ago. I didn’t move. The guy started retching, and he was holding his arm, cut over his eye, I guess from the fall. Next thing I know, I hear his buddy calling to him to come out and bring the bag. He felt around trying to find it, but couldn’t and managed not to find me either! He finally told his buddy they could come back in daylight to find it. His buddy reached down to give him a hand to get out and they left.”

Archie paused. He asked Eli if he had any water, and Eli gave him a bottle. His voice was getting raspy and I could tell he was getting worn out by the telling of the story. But after a few minutes he went on.

“After about an hour, I made my way out of the dumpster, with the bag. I forgot my cans though, damn it, with all that damn excitement. I was walking out of the alley with the bag when I ran into Eli. I told him the story, and he said he’d headed this way because he heard the gunshots. I knew those were bad guys and I didn’t want to be seen….we needed to hide. We went to the bus stop, waited for the next bus and just as we got on, we saw a couple guys running and heard them yelling for the bus to stop, to wait, but the driver didn’t hear them, and shut the door and drove away.

Me and Eli sat in the back of the bus. There weren’t many people on it, it was late, like maybe 2 AM. We opened the bag and found it full of money and some bags of powder. I’m not stupid, I got myself in the middle of a drug heist. They saw me get on the bus, and know what I look like. Me and Eli got off at a stop about a half mile from the river and he brought me up here. He’s lived here on and off when the weather is bad, he said. No one else seems to know about the place or it would be full of people with no place to go.”

He stopped again, for a drink and his breathing was heavy and raspy. “I’ve got that COPD thing,” he said. “I can’t run like that. I’m out of my meds, scared shitless that they will find me if I show my face in town. I don’t know what to do with the money or the powder….the last thing I want, next to having them find me, is to have the law on my ass because I’ve got a couple of keys of coke or whatever it is in this bag.”

I sat silently for a few minutes, trying to consider the options of these destitute but decent old men. They wanted to do the right thing, just so they could continue to live a somewhat peaceful life, but obviously knew the risks involved with having that bag. The choices only three:

1. The obvious. Giving the bag to the police with the story, using me as an intermediary.

2. Leaving the bag somewhere, where those who were looking for it might find it.

3. Keeping the bag, splitting the money, leaving the drugs in the cave for the time being.

Option 1, handing the bag over to the authorities sounded like a good idea, until they realized they might implicate themselves somehow, and that it might open them to some danger if somehow word got out into the press, and they were seen.

Option 2, leaving the bag for them to find had it’s drawbacks too. The main one is being sure that the person who found it was the one looking for it. If it wasn’t, and got into someone else’s hands it could be a disaster.

Option 3, keeping the loot, gave me pause. If ever there were 2 men who needed that kind of financial boon, it was these guys. But it seemed to me it might go against their grain to keep illegal drug money for their own gain.

My only option was to tell them what the options were, explain the ramifications of them all, and let them choose. It wasn’t my call to make, it was theirs. So that’s exactly what I did. About an hour later, Eli, Archie and Buster were going down the path from the cave with me.

Twenty minutes later I was stopped in the alley by my rear office door to let them out, with instructions to go inside. My secretary knew they were coming and would greet them and show them the way to my office.

Overwhelmed, or Boating in FL 101

The last time I outfitted a boat was 30 years ago. There was no internet. Therefore we relied on the advice of other boaters, and professionals at the shops and marine stores to determine which products to buy for our boat. Things such as the best wax, the best anchor, the best bottom paint.

Now, with the internet, we find ourselves endlessly clicking on different sites and products and videos, causing general overwhelmed-ness at least 3 times a day. Sometimes 10. There’s a downside to having so much information.

The other thing is, boating is so different down here in FL than up north. First of all, we’re in the water 12 months here. Up north it’s basically a 5 month season from May to October. Of course, for the most part this is great, because you get to use the boat year round, and can schedule maintenance that needs to be done on dry land whenever you feel like it.

Second of all, the water in the summer gets to be 90°. This is the biggest problem, really. Apparently 90° water is like steroids for critters in the ocean that like to adhere to boats, and their props and the water intakes. We’ve been told that in the summer, all it takes is 3 days to grow enough stuff to affect its ability to run. Almost everyone has told us to dry store the boat, which means in rack storage here, or on the trailer between uses. The problem is, we want the boat in the water. We want to be able to run down to the boat, say, after open mic night, and have a drink on the boat with friends. Or just hang out there when it’s too windy to go out.

While we will be enjoying the boat, so will the critters. They’re setting up housekeeping in the through-hull fittings and hoses while we sleep. It appears that it’s a constant battle to evict them, and even if you kill them, their bodies lay there, attached to wherever they were. Which can cause the engine, or the generator, or the air conditioning to overheat and shut down. How to clean them out, regularly from hard to reach places is something we have to figure out.

So right now, the boat is at the marine engine repair place, being serviced. It should be done today or tomorrow. In the meantime we are constantly online, and talking to people trying to find out the best way to deal with the issue of having stuff grow on and in the boat. Which means, of course, trying to cut through all the information and misinformation to come to the best solution.

Overwhelming.

I’m pretty glad that I already know how to tie a boat up, and anchor a boat, and chart a course confidently. That would be an awful lot to learn to do, on top of all the other parts of owning a new-to-us boat, in a different climate than either of us are used to. I’m also really happy that Dan and I deal with being overwhelmed by talking to each other and not at each other. We don’t take it out on each other. We struggle individually and we have our moments, but they are only moments. We’ve learned to shut it down, and walk away for a little while when either one of us, or both of us, go there. In the end, our relationship is strengthened by solving these problems.

I realize that this post might be pretty boring for people not into boating, or boats, but it’s front and center in my head at the moment. I’m hoping that once we’ve got the boat in the water and are sitting in it, watching the sun set over the Gulf, that the sea will become my muse and inspire some real writing again.

As ever, love and light to everyone.

Question of the Day: Coincidences, Yes or No

Question of the Day

Do you believe in coincidences?

Obviously I do not. If you read my last blog, you will see that I believe nothing that’s happened to me was a coincidence, and it was all designed by the universe (my name for the higher power) to bring me to where I am. I think I’ve disbelieved in coincidences since I read The Celestine Prophesy back in the 90’s.

I’d love to hear your stories on coincidences or lack of them. So tell me in a comment, or your own blog linked back to this one.

As ever, love and light to everyone.

Beneath The Surface Of Buying A Boat

We bought a boat. Yesterday. It is a 27’ cruising boat, often called a pocket cruiser. Sleeps 4 people, with a tiny galley and a head. It’s a single engine, it has a generator so we can use the air conditioning when we are anchored out. It’s perfect to spend a few days at a time on, and cruise the waters around here. We are excited, to say the least. It will be a couple weeks before it sees the water, since we are having the engine and generator completely gone through and serviced, and we have a lot of clean-up to do, as well as get the boat outfitted properly.

I am more than excited. I have often said that my old boat, that I had with my ex, kept me married far longer than I should have been because I didn’t want to give up that part of my life. I so love being on the water. Finally, I realized that when it gets bad, it’s bad, and no matter how much I loved the boating life, it couldn’t make up for living with a controlling abusive man, who just got worse with each passing day.

I wrote off the boating life, and focused on life. Period. I wanted a joyful life. I think that finally, after what Dan calls a few left turns, I have that in all areas of my life. Manifestation of my dreams. But now…now! I have the opportunity to get back on the water, with a man I just adore who will match my enthusiasm, and who treats me like gold.

I am in awe of the way the universe has conspired in my behalf over the last 11 years. Even though there were times I couldn’t see it, it was all working for me, to bring me here, and now. To give me financial security from my divorce, to finding the right home in Florida, to living close to my family, to finding a circle of friends down here that are wonderful, and most of all, bringing Dan and I together, with perfect timing. To find someone whose dreams are so compatible with mine, and his nature so compatible with mine, is amazing. A real partnership, at last, which allows us to fearlessly buy a boat together.  Which gives me back a part of my life that I thought was in the past.

So, today, I am grateful, and excited, and happy. I hope I don’t sound like I’m bragging, because I am so not. I am just so grateful, and needed to express that, to put it out into the universe.

As always, love and light to all.

The Silent Sea and I

half moon

The silence roped me in.

Quiet surrounded me.

The sea beneath me was calm,

Moving placidly,

I could feel it’s flow

on it’s journey around this earth.

Blown by winds at times,

Renewed with rains

Vaporized by the sun

Frozen by the cold.

Still, tonight, it moved me

In silence.

Staring up at the night sky

A comet raced by

and disappeared into the darkness.

The half moon hung suspended,

the flat side of it ragged,

fading into the night.

We are one,

This silent sea, the night and I.

Arms outstretched

I lay, floating,

the only sound was my breath.

By Deborah E. Dayen

Picture from Google Images

 

Lots of Stuff in the Works

I’ve not been around lately, which is becoming the norm. Dan’s daughter and the grandkids were here last week, and as soon as they left we were planning and preparing for Easter dinner for his family. My brother-in-law stopped by for breakfast on the way home from the airport on Monday, and the inspector came yesterday to look at the now uncaulked and freshly shimmed windows, and passed them. So now, to get Home Depot to schedule the windows for recaulking, and the inspector for a final inspection.

Yesterday the boat we want to buy was brought over to the yard near my house for it’s engine survey which will be done today. We will be there, and checking out a lot of other things on the boat, like the condition of the bimini top, and the hot water/water pressure system. Hoping for a good survey on the engines. The boat itself is in really good condition, and I’m sure we can fix anything that’s wrong with it, but if the engines andgenerator are not good, it’s a no go, because to replace them would be more than the cost of the boat. We spent Monday evening with a friend of ours on his 40’ sailboat which he plans to sail around the world in a couple of years. His boat is at the marina in town where we’d like to keep the boat, so we got a feel for the marina life there.

My younger sister is coming for a visit in less than 2 weeks, and I can’t wait to see her! We’ll go over to my older sisters house on the island, and mostly hang out there. We’re all pretty excited to be together again.

Lots of exciting stuff in the works at the moment, and I am about to leave now to go see them survey the engine. I’ll be back, not sure how soon. Maybe later, maybe not for a few days. Hope all is well with everyone. Love and light to all.