Energetic Discomfort This Morning

 

energy cordsI am feeling an attempt to energetically cord me again this morning, despite my deleting the song, despite my determination to stay on the road I’m on.  It’s irritating.

I find myself feeling negative emotions for no reason.  Unsettledness in my solar plexus and sacral chakras, which is always where I feel it.  I am determined to send it back where it came from.

I’m not sure it’s intentional.  It’s probably not. In fact, I doubt the sender is even cognizant of the fact that it’s being sent. But it doesn’t matter, it’s here this morning, and it disrupted my sleep last night.  Time to do reiki, I think.  Time to do a gratitude meditation. Time to cut the cords, once more. Time to make space for the positive emotions to take over and crowd this crap out.

I have no idea what’s happening at the source of this energetic cord.  Nor do I want to know.  I think the whole point of it is to encourage me to find out.  But I don’t want to know.  It’s of no purpose, it brings nothing to my life but magnification of negativity that manages to stretch across the miles to me.

I hold no grudge about it, I have no anger. I wish no ill on this person.  I wish for them all good things.  I understand that the person at the other end of this energetic cord that is trying to wrap around me is doing the best they can from the level of consciousness.  I forgive, because of that.  I am done with that chapter of my life.  I just want to be left alone by this person, on every level.

So much nicer to have my son’s laughing energy when I wake up.  I’m going to get back to that place, and send this energy on it’s way, back to the source, out to the Universe to atone for everyone’s highest good.

Love and light, everyone.

Release

Connections with you

Wrapped around my heart,

My psyche.

Squeezing the life out of me

Causing me gripping pain.

There has been no joy in that connection.

No beauty has been held up in awe.

No great love has been born,

And now, no great love is lost.

The tether has been released,

We float free of each other.

The cords have been cut,

their grip on my heart loosened.

The last tears have been shed,

Their salinity lost in the vast ocean.

The waves cease to call your name to me

And the wind is silent

Bringing me peace and healing.

I look around,

I don’t see you

Anywhere.

You have vanished from my life.

But I see my beautiful life.

I see the people I love waiting to embrace me.

I see the places I love,

Beckoning my footsteps.

Filling the void that your disappearance left.

Filling it with more wonder and joy and beauty

than I could ever imagine

When I was with you.

I lift my face to the rising sun.

I breathe in the still, clean air.

I am alive, I feel, I love.