Brotherhood of the World Bloggers Award!!

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I was nominated for Brotherhood of the World Bloggers Award. by Kritika whose blog “From the Soul to the Nib of The Pen” is one of my favorite blogs.  Her writing is exquisite, and I am so honored that she chose me. This is the link to her blog:  https://krivashist.wordpress.com/   Awards on WordPress play an important role in binding all the bloggers here and helping each one of us to discover great blogs in fun ways.

Here are the rules:
1) Thank and link back to the person who nominated you for the award.
2) List the Rules and Display the Brotherhood of the world Award logo to your post and/or blog.
3) Answer the questions set to you and then you may create your set of questions for your nominees.
4) Nominate around ten other bloggers and let them know about the award.

Questions asked:

1. You are given the responsibility to bring global peace, how will you do that?
Ans: By teaching every child how to meditate.

2. Did blogging improve your life in any way?
Ans: Oh yes.  I have made new friends, and been able to practice writing, and entertain new ideas and just learn in general.

3. You can do anything you want for 3 hours, what would you do?
Ans: Spend it in intimate conversation with someone I love.

4. Reading or writing, given you’ll be paid for reading?
Ans: Writing, because I can’t help myself anyway.

5. An idea of a perfect life?
Ans: A life spent in the persuit of passion, not money.

6. You can travel back in time, what year you would choose and why?
Ans: 1969.  I’d go to Woodstock.  🙂

7. Space, Solitude, Silence. Choose one and why?
Ans: Silence.  Because only in silence can I hear God.

8. Is there life elsewhere in universe?
Ans: I am sure there is.

9. You have to plan a surprise for your best friend, but you are broke. What will you plan?
Ans: I would gather all their friends, ask everyone to bring something and then head for the beach.

10. One of your friends, with whom you were not in contact for many years, meets you somewhere and starts cursing you. How will you tackle the situation?
Ans: Tell them they had a case of mistaken identity and walk away.

Nominations:
https://sabiscuit.wordpress.com/

https://lovewillleadyouhome.wordpress.com/

http://moylomenterprises.com/

http://mytwosentences.com/

https://gijoe79blog.wordpress.com/

http://godivaworldtravels.com/

https://poetryandchocolateandbooks.wordpress.com/

http://betternotbroken.com/

https://ashishvision.wordpress.com/

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Kritika’s questions were so profound that I would like you to answer the same questions if you accept the nominations. 🙂

The award is only to appreciate amazing talent on WordPress and to spread love in this ever-increasing community. You may well want to decline the award.

This Must Be What Paradise is Like….

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I did a 10 minute meditation at lunch. It’s all I had time for.  In that short time I went to someplace beautiful, with glowing colors, warm lights flashing, and a feeling of joy, snd safety. 

It was particularly lovely because I have not heard from S for more than 24 hours. Not that I expected to, I told him that while I love him as much as ever, I can’t continue with a relationship which had become purely physical in the last couple of months. So I don’t want to see him if that’s what we are all about. 

I miss him, I love him, but in the words of JLo I gotta love myself enough to walk away.  I don’t know that S agrees with me about the direction we’ve taken, I don’t know if he’s angry at me, tho I would guess he is, or is just walking away because he is unable to give me any more than that right now.  I’m not going to speak for him. I believe he’s got a good heart, he’s innately a good man, that he needs some time to come to grips with himself and how he feels about many things. 

Maybe I’ll hear from him, maybe not. But during that meditation, I found a place I want to be, to travel to. I’d like company, but I’ll go it alone if that’s how it works out. 

The universe doesn’t make mistakes. I am where I’m supposed to be, and I’m going where it leads me. 

Tonight I’m going to have an angel/psychic reading. I have no idea what to expect, but am looking forward to it. 

Thinking right now of the Van Morrison song “this must be what paradise is like….so quiet here…so quiet here…”  

Peace out folks. 

ENCOURAGING THUNDER BLOGGER AWARD NOMINATION

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I’ve been nominated for the Encouraging Thunder Blogger Award by Darrell Scanlon of The Pen and the Page.   He’s a wonderful and creative writer.  This is the link to his unusual blog:  https://darrenscanlon.wordpress.com.   Thank you so much!  I am so honored, and thrilled!

Why Do I Blog?

For a lot of reasons.  The first and most pressing is that I LOVE to write.  It is a passion.  I used to journal, and I still do, but blogging seems to be a better venue to work things out, to float an idea, to practice the art of writing.  I love the feedback, I am thrilled to have made a number of friends through blogging.

I started this blog on the advice of a very bright woman who told me if I was serious about publishing a book, I should have a blog and a Facebook page tied to the book.  That was the impetus, and I still intend to finish the book, but the blog has taken on a life of it’s own. It started ot as journal-type blogs, but lately I’ve been into writing poetry, which is a new venture for me.  Until I started my own blog, and reading others, I never considered a poster and a few words a blog, but sometimes, it’s actually perfect for self-expression, and I guess that’s what blogging is all about.

My nominations are:

https://abbiegrrl.wordpress.com/

http://belikewaterproduction.com/

http://belikewaterproduction.com/

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Rules for accepting the award.

Post it on your blog.

Add the Encouraging Thunder logo

Grant other bloggers the award

Mention your purpose for blogging

Thank the person who nominated you.

Peace

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In the stillness of the early morning

In the cool rays of a rising sun

The echoes of the crickets not yet stopped their chirping

There is peace.

In the expansiveness of a quiet mind

In the depth of a waking soul

In the beauty seen with eyes closed

There is peace.

In the hope of worlds unspoken

In the joy of dreams unseen

In the love that is unconditional

There is peace.

Stuff on My Mind

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Stuff on my mind lately. Important stuff, to me.  Don’t really know what to do about it.  Don’t really feel like writing about it.  I think it’s best just to sit with it.  I don’t feel pressed to make any kind of decision about it.  I need  a little distance from the “event” that pulled it all to the top.

While I would always describe myself as a  happy person, there is an aspect of my life that seems to be deliriously happy or very unhappy.  Lately more unhappy than happy, even though the happy moments have been grandiose.

Feeling like I wish I could just retire, sell my house and move to Florida, buy myself a cute little house and disappear into the landscape.  In the next 5 days.  Nothing like a dream…

Sometimes it might be way easier not to know what I want.  But all that time I spent figuring out who I was when I left my marriage enabled me to create a vision.  And generally, everything is coming into focus with what envisioned.  Except this one thing…..

Sigh.  Gonna go to bed, sleep on it.  Maybe do a little bit of Byron Katie’s inquiry on it.  It would help to just accept reality I think.  As long as I was sure I knew what that was.

No More Heartbreak

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I was with my ex-husband for just shy of 40 years.  We met when we were 18, married at 25, divorced at 58.  In that time, he broke my heart 1000 times.  Rivers of tears, countless sleepless nights.  Days of deep-seated fear, hours of sheer terror.  A broken heart was not something I wanted to revisit.

I left him when I was 55, almost 56.  I felt only relief from the moment I was gone.  And fear for my son, who stayed with him.  But mostly relief, that my world upon waking would be the same as when I went to bed.

When I was 63 I met S. A full 7 years after leaving my ex.  I was attracted to him before we even met.  I have often commented on our connection.  It seemed uncanny, it seemed that we had to already know each other on some level.  It’s never been a balanced relationship, but it’s been fun, interesting, and passionate. But then, last winter, he fucked the prison whore, and broke my heart.  To his credit, he knew he was going to break my heart, and tried to break it of with me before he did that.  But I was too convincing, I guess, in my misery, and sadness, and he couldn’t do it.

Since then….it has been off again, on again for us.  We have that connection, a physical desire, but we want different things from life, I guess.  We see things differently.  We react to things differently.  And the places we came from on our separate journeys were a long ways apart.  Each time now, that we are off again, it is a little harder to put it back on.  No matter that the love is there, will always be, it just isn’t making either of us happy.  My heart is broken again, I am guessing that his heart is feeling a little pain too, but I could be wrong.  I can’t speak for him.

Then there is A….who I met after the thing with the prison whore.  We became close.  A loves me, is not afraid to be vulnerable and tell me exactly how he feels.  He knows I have this thing with S.  A, however, is not here.  He’s off on his grand adventure, and sends me pics and  tells me how he misses me, and loves me, but he’s not here.  He’s out west, in one of the national parks….he won’t be settled in for probably a year.  There is no future really there.  And I never could drum up the passion for him.  But love, yes, I love the man. He treats me like gold. I think his purpose in my life is to remind me how I should be treated.

When I first told him I was going to see S again, he sent me a beautiful email, telling me he knows he only offers heartbreak on a platter, because he knew he would be leaving on this great adventure, but that he would balance it with love and tenderness.

But God, I didn’t want another heartbreak.  I don’t want any more of them.  I want to love someone who can love me back, fully, unafraid….  I am tired of the games people play in their heads, holding back out of fear, fear not caused by me, but by a past love.  Fear which has no basis in the present, but still colors everything.  I’m tired of having a passionate physical relationship, which never carries over into life, and living.

I think I’d just rather be alone that deal with another heartbreak.  I’m not saying that if someone came into my view I wouldn’t give it a chance.  I’d sure like to find the love that lasts before I leave this earth.  But I think when it begins to go bad, I need to just let it go, instead of trying to make it work.  Better to be alone, and whole, than have my heart axed in two again.

Seeking

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Change is part of life, she said

As I sat outside with my morning meditation.

Welcome change into your life, she said.

The sun rises on a new day,

and sets on a new evening.

In between miraculous and mundane experiences

blend into the tapestry of our lives.

No regrets, it has all been good.

No fear for the future,

I know where I’m going.

But change, the only constant.

Ever seeking,

For that place where I find peace.

My head not in the clouds

Nor buried deep in a dark hole.

My eyes open, and seeking

With joy my companion,

Peace.

Hiding Out

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I was told my head was up my ass.

I knew that this would come to pass.

The words that came had no class

They had the stench of real bad gas.

And so I will remain this way

Until the all clear comes one day.

Better to have my head up my ass

Than to breathe someone else’s really bad gas.

It seems an odd way to end

But on this I won’t bend.

I have been this way once before

And I swore I’d travel it no more.