Counting Blessings, A Poem

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Feeling so blessed this morning.
I’ve had,
and focused way too much on,
So much heartache in my life.
But this morning,
all I feel is gratitude.

Everything that happens to us
Brings us to where we are.
LOOK where I am!

On the cusp of a dream,
Filled with good friends,
And family.
About to live close to the ocean,
In a place where I’ll never shovel snow again.

My son is strong, and smart
And creating his own good life.
I’m so proud of him.
So lucky to have such a close connection with him.
We will always have each other
Even if the miles separate us.

The lessons I’ve learned
Through the heartache and pain
Have brought me here
To a place I can be exceedingly happy
And be myself.

Everyone has been a teacher
I’m grateful for them all.
It’s been a hell of a journey
And the journey continues.

Blessed, just blessed.
Nothing else to say.

Fun Day

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They had my retirement party at work today. It was nice, short, but recognition for 12 years there of dedicated work. They gave me the same mantle clock they gave my friend in January. But it’s a really nice clock, engraved. Very nautical looking.

The women I work with gave me a gift, and a gift card, which was so nice. And everyone signed a card. So many on the card said they enjoyed working with me, and would miss me. I felt like it was sincere. At the party I said, You know I like my job, I do. But it’s the people, all of you that I will miss. We are like family, we spend every day together. It’s really the people who keep you here for 12 years. Because you enjoy working with them.

Then shortly after I left work early, and went to Paint Nite at my friends, the friend who is driving to Florida with me. It was so much fun. Totally enjoyed it! We all ate, and had drinks, and then were taught how to paint a picture, which I was going to put on this page, but I can’t seem to get it to download tonight. That’s my rendition, lol. I’m satisfied with it. It’s not about having talent, it’s about being creative, and having fun. It was wonderful to hang out with my two bff’s, and have fun.

My son called me in the middle of painting. I answered the phone and said, “I can’t talk! I painting!” And he said, “I don’t care! I got a job!” He was offered a job with a major cell phone company in Denver, he starts Sept. 12. He’s so happy, so relieved, and I’m happy for him and relieved. He has a decent place to live, and a good job, and he’ll be fine. It will make it much easier to say goodbye when I leave Denver. So happy.

Don’t feel like going to work tomorrow, for sure. But I’ll go. One more week, and I’m done. Life seems to be moving forward, for both of us, in a good way. Not much to complain about tonight.

Love and light, all.

Except Here, A Poem.

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There is no way to say
I love you
Except to say it
Here
Where you might see it.

There is no way to tell you
That the pain is gone
Only the good remains
Except to tell you
Here
Where you might see it.

I want to wish you well
And have no venue
For the words to connect
Except to put them
Here
Where you might see them.

There is no way
To make you understand
That I have no wish to disrupt you.
So I tell you
Here
So you might know.

There is no way to say
I miss you
But I do, every day.
So I’ll tell you
Here
So you might know.

And remember,
On days where no light is cast
Love always and all ways.

Flaming Sunrise, A Poem

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The sunrise flames reds this morning
Reminding us
Of the beautiful world we live in.

Even those things that have been hard
Really hard
Are easier when the world is painted
Red,and pink and blue and gray.

It reminds me
Of the vibrancy of being in love.
Of the peacefulness
Of knowing who I am.

New sunrises await
In a new place.
Equally as beautiful.
Memories will make me smile.

By Deborah E. Dayen

Picture taken by me, this morning, from my deck.

Poets for Peace Update, and Other Stuff

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Poets for Peace has announced that the collaborative of poems will be published in Praxis Magazine Online. I’m so very excited about this! There is some wonderful poetry, some wonderful energy there. I added the Haiku I published last night, Spilling Love. You still have time to contribute if you like, until the end of August, just paste the entire poem into a comment on this site.

https://forgottenmeadows.wordpress.com/2016/07/16/calling-all-poetscreative-minds-to-a-grand-collaboration-poets-for-peace/comment-page-6/#comment-19666

To be part of the published collaborative, you will need to give permission, so include this when you post your poem or just as an additional comment. “One or all of these fields will need to be included: URL, Name, Location Contributor is writing from. “The standard Praxis copyright page at the beginning will show that copyright for contributed lines is retained by the individual contributors”.

So thrilled to be part of this.

I finished wrapping all my artwork in bubble-wrap last night. Now to pack it up. I think I’ll make good headway with the packing this weekend. Mostly what’s left is household goods, like sheets and towels, clothes, and the kitchen. So I can make a good start with those this weekend. My son is putting new brakes on his car Saturday.

I still have to call my insurance company about the house, and switch my son’s car to his name. That shouldn’t be a big deal. I hope. Nothing with DMV is ever easy though, lol.

Moving along. Today is the company retirement thing, and then Paint Nite tonight at my girlfriends. That will be fun!!

Have a good day everyone. Love and light.

 

Money With Wings

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I swear, money is flying out of my hands. $500 car taxes, $275 for taxes on my slip, $300 for medicare, $300 to the town I live in in FL for water, garbage for 6 months. Not to mention the $5K I had to give the buyers, and the $2500 on the hot water heater. Plus electric bills, and gas bills…..I have to pay this, and get my son to Denver, and get myself moved. Yikes. Well, I’ll figure it out. I only planned to work 25 hours a week or so in Florida but may have to go for full time for awhile, and make back up all this expense. Someone told me I could Uber and make some decent money, probably true in season down there.

It will be nice there though, no taxes on my cars, tiny taxes on my house. No state income tax. People say the insurance on the cars is higher there, but there’s no state income tax on them, so in the end I’ll save money.

Money, I swear, it’s the bane of existence. Wish I could figure out how to live without it, lol.

I booked the movers last night. There went another $350 deposit on the move. (Shakes head…) I have to finish my throw away piles this week, and call someone to come take it all to the dump. I haven’t found anyone who wants my old washer and dryer, so I guess that will be hauled away by someone, and maybe my couch in the basement. Geezus.

Meanwhile, I packed up some of my artwork last night, but it’s hard to do too much at night after working 9 hours. And work has been hectic, and the people I’m training are kind of going into panic mode, realizing I’ll be gone soon. Especially, the one I’m training for my job. She seems to be hesitant to go to my boss and ask questions, fearing looking stupid or something. I ask him all the time, and it’s why we have a good relationship, because I find out how he wants things handled, and do them correctly. So I hope I can help her over that hurdle of asking him. It helps that I have run my own company. I don’t have any ego tied into my job, I just want to do it the way he wants it done.  I used to get so pissed at employees who wouldn’t ask and then screwed things up.  Or left them undone for the not knowing how to do them.

So here I am just muddling through this stuff, again. It will be nice when I’m on my way, and all this stuff is done. Just need to remember to breathe. Just breathe.

Love and light.