The crows are flying around my back yard. The wind is kicking up, like it’s maybe going to storm. Occasionally the sun pokes through a hole in the sky, and lights up the day. It’s a good morning to try to clear my head, put my thoughts in order.

My son and I and his two friends had ribs and corn on the deck last night. And now the bees are hanging around, though the table is clean. I can smell the lavender in my herb garden blowing in on the wind.

I will miss this place. So much has happened here, in this house. I’ve been happy here, as has my son.

I’ll be happy there. Happier, not to ever shovel snow again. Not to ever have the bugars freeze in my nose again. There will be hurricanes, and coastal storms to deal with. But they’re more rare, than a blizzard up here. And I’m on high ground. With a new roof.

So many things I’m looking forward to. Walking every day, riding a bike. Getting much more fit, because that’s just the way it is. Maybe having a “Feed the world” garden, and planting tropical flowers in my yard. My friend told me that there were flowers blooming in my yard last week when she was there. That thought made me happy.

I woke this morning with every joint in my body sore from all the packing yesterday. I’m thinking that wine is probably not an anti-inflammatory either, lol. But it was so good! I took a couple of arthritis pain pills, and put on some topical cream on my arms that my son got me where he works. Feeling much better now. I slept a solid 8 hours, which is amazing.

The big thing for this week is to get the car insurance thing squared away, get my son’s car in his name. I hope it’s not too big of a hassle. I also have to make some arrangements for the stuff I can’t even give away. Gotta get it hauled away, or see if Salvation Army or someone will come get it.

My last week of work. That is friggin’ amazing. My life has not been my own, ever in my adult life. I’m sure I’ll be working by the end of October doing something, but til then…It’s like a long vacation. A new life. Only those things I love allowed in.

I’m quite content at the moment.

Life moves on. I have had a little time to reflect this morning.

Love and light.

Someone down my street is shooting fireworks. The big, illegal kind. For at least a half hour now. I sat outside and watched for awhile. I had to watch through the trees, but it was still beautiful. It’s a beautiful summer night.

I’ve been busy packing today. My son and I bought him a luggage set today. I’m finding it easier to think about saying good bye to him, now that he has a job. It will still be hard, but the fear part of it is removed now. Now, it’s just about missing him, not about worrying over him.

Hard to believe in two weeks we will begin our trip. And that two weeks after that, I’ll be on my way to Florida.

My son and I are aiming to be at my bff’s from high school the 2nd night. She said she can put us up there, which will be nice so we won’t have to get a hotel room that night. Then another of my friends who lives in Daytona in Florida said she will try to come over when I get there and help me move in. How lucky am I? It will be fun to drive over to Daytona during the race week there too. She lives on the barrier beach. Bunch of beach bums, all of us, lol. She said they have fireworks there once a week. Sounds like fun.

Damn I feel so blessed.

And so tired. I am beat tonight. I almost forgot to call them tonight because I fell asleep on the couch, even with the fireworks. Crazy…. Off to bed.

Love and light, everyone. Sleep well.

So, I came outside this morning, to gather my thoughts, get myself centered, by writing as usual, on my deck. It was early as usual, 6 am. I turned on the computer, and Windows had decided it was a good time to update. Said updates took an hour and a half.

How frustrating. It totally changed my mood, from feeling tentative about the day, with so much to do, to being a little pissed off. I was on WP, on my phone, but that’s hard. I hate trying to write anything much from my phone. I was on FB for awhile, and gratefully, my cousin saw me on there early, and called me, so she helped me pass about 40 minutes of the time talking.

It seems that ususally they ask you if you want to update now, or schedule it. But this time, no, it just started as soon as I opened the lap top. I guess the lesson is, to be reminded that I am in control of so little of what happens in my life, lol.

My son and I are going to go buy him a suitcase today. We have an extra carry-on bag, but not a large one. We’ve usually shared the one good large one we have. But now he will need his own, so we’re going to go to Sam’s Club and find one.

While we are together in the car, I think we’re going to call his father, and hopefully he will answer the phone. We will tell him together that we are moving. The family wedding next week is the impetus to tell him. I just don’t think it would be fair for him not to know, and get blind-sided by the news , from another family member.

He’s paying a dear price as it is, for his cruelty and abuse of us. We have recovered. We have both created wonderful lives, mostly filled with happiness. We have each other always. My poor foolish ex has no one, and although it’s his choice to be alone, I still know it would hurt him to find out from someone else that his son had moved to Colorado. I’m not sure if it would make any difference to him that I am moving to Florida. Sometimes I think that he still considers me his wife, even though we’ve been apart almost 10 years. He just has such a hard time letting go of things. His power and control issues couldn’t hold it together, and I know he is embarrassed by that, rightly or wrongly. I have no wish to add to that.

I just had a thought that maybe he would want the spare washer and dryer, and the couches in my son’s room. Where he would put them, I have no idea, but I think I’ll offer them. He does have a pick-up that he could come get them in. Although I’m sure he won’t want to come over here, to my house. I’m sure it would just anger him that I have such a nice home while he lives in an unheated cabin next door to his old house.

Sometimes it just makes me so sad to see what he’s done with his life.

When we get back from the shopping trip, I’ll be packing the rest of the weekend. I should have a really good handle on it by the end of the day tomorrow. I will hopefully be able to schedule someone to come and pick up the stuff that needs to go to the dump. I need to give my snow blower to my friend. A few other odds and ends. Gonna be a busy time from now until I leave for Denver.

It’s time to get this day underway,I can’t make up the time I lost to updates, lol.

Love and light everyone.

Since my computer decided that the second I turned it on this morning would be a good time for it to update, one of those lengthy slow multiple shutdown updates, I am on my phone. Grrrr. But found this on FB and thought it as good a way to start the day as any. Love and light, all.