I was perusing social media this morning, which I had barely done this weekend, because I was on overload with Cheetoman’s brazen stupidity.  I don’t stay up late enough to ever watch SNL live, but thank God, the best bits of it show up on social media.  This is hysterical, if you haven’t seen it.

I felt so much better today. Just tired, but really pretty good. My jaw is tender, and swollen, but not really in pain. So, I took a nice long hot shower. I put on a skort and a t-shirt and took a nice long 2 mile walk on the waterfront.

It was blowing like a bear, out of the north, and actually was a bit chilly. I was fine, because I was walking pretty fast trying to burn calories. Still it was beautiful, a cloudless sky, not too much traffic for a Saturday, foot or automobile. The tide was really low, as seen in this photo. This is not the main beach. The main beach, vollyeball courts, and pavilions are on the other side of the building on the far right.

When I came home, I made a grocery list and went to the store. I am dying to make some veggie lasagna, so got all the stuff for that. Maybe Monday or Tuesday. I have to plan something to make for Lou when he gets home, which it looks like will probably be another 2 weeks. And of course, one of my besties from CT will be here visiting me right about then.

He is Italian, and I am not good at Italian food. I mean, it’s all about the sauce, right? In CT there is a half an aisle at the store dedicated to sauces. Here there is a space about 10′ long. I suppose that a pre-made sauce is not the best thing to try for a first meal anyway. I’m not going to experiment on the first meal I make for him. Baked stuffed shrimp, or shrimp in garlic sauce. Maybe with some scallops added in. I know he likes seafood. When he told me he’d be staying longer, he said, “then I quit and I’m coming to Florida and have that dinner.” I said, “Don’t worry, I’ll keep dinner warm.” I think he’s anxious to return, as soon as he can.

I guess it’s all about the food, lol. At least for now. Tomorrow is dreaded tax day for me. I am going to try to get my information together so I can send it off to my financial guy. I usually use Turbotax, but not this year with the buying and selling of houses. I don’t want to screw that up.

Time to call it a day. Love and light, everyone.

Picture taken by me, today.

This morning was the bitch session. I said I’d try to come back later with a list of things I’m grateful for.

1. For Ibuprofen. Because it helped my headache and my swollen sinuses. Yay.
2. For Merlot Bellavita cheese. It is SOOO good.
3. That I live 1.5 miles from the beach and can go there every day.
4. That I heard from L.
5. That I have enough money to pay for my groceries.
6. And put gas in my car.
7. For my son who has called me twice today, for my friends who have kept in touch, or even not, they are still my friends!
8. That I was able to buy this little house 1.5 miles from the beach, in this cool little town.
9. That I’m retired.
10. That it’s almost always sunny here, and above 70 almost every day.
11. For my little deck, almost completely shaded.
12. For my laptop.
13. For the food that I prepared earlier this week so I don’t have to cook!
14. That a friend from up North is coming to see me.
15. For my sister and brother-in-law, and my other sister.
16. That I have things that I’m passionate about.
17. For music, art, writing
18. Chocolate
19. The color of the ocean
20. Of course…the air I breathe, the water I drink, the spirit within me, and the one within you.

Thank goodness, this list is so much longer than this mornings! I am blessed indeed!

Love and light.

I have some general bitches this morning. Because, I can be a bitch, lol.  Please don’t take me all too seriously.

1. I have had allergy problems for the first time in my life for the last 3 weeks or so. Now, the symptoms are gone, no more itching and sneezing. But it seems I have a sinus infection which is making it difficult to sleep because my nose is so stuffed up I can’t breathe through it. I cannot become a mouth-breather! UGH! It is not helpful to have the already present issue of my sore mouth. I’m on antibiotics for the surgery, so hopefully they’ll kill the sinus infection too.
2. Which brings me to the fact that I have not slept well for 2 nights. I was sleeping so well, so much better than for the last 2 decades, and now I’m back to not sleeping so well. Which puts me in a bad mood. So I’m bitching. It will pass…as Juan says, This too shall pass. Not soon enough! I guess I should be grateful that it’s physical things keeping me up, and not emotional issues making my head spin in perpetuity.
3. I am irritated that I feel somewhat censored in my blog again. It’s irritating, and not something I can live with for too long. Like a friend says to me, it’s not my problem how others react to my writing. Or maybe it’s not so much censored as stalked. Maybe both. Whichever it is, I don’t want to cause problems either. Writing is how I expel emotions, feelings, and thoughts I don’t want. I have to get creatively creative apparently, which seems like a lot of work, for zero sum gain personally. So much easier to just blurt things out and be done with them.
4. Related to #3, I am also irritated at being accused of writing stuff I did not write. (This is specific to one person) For God’s sake, before I’m accused, maybe the facts should be checked! Not like every word I’ve ever published isn’t here to read. Fact check, people, (or person)! Just because our president doesn’t, or because you’re sick of fact-checking him, doesn’t mean you get to say whatever you want and then believe it’s true. Oh yeah, well Cheetoman does that too, doesn’t he?
5. I scheduled two dr appt for the exact same day and time. I’d forgotten to put the first one in my phone. The second one I made at the end of the surgery Thursday, without even thinking about it and now I have to reschedule one of them. Grrr. In my defense, I was totally wasted when I left the dr’s office Thursday.
6. It is chilly here this morning. I have a snuggly blanket over me as I write. I should be grateful, the temp will hit 80° today, but right now it’s not even 60° and my house is 67°. Brrr. I’m spoiled.
7. I’m feeling impatient for L to get home, and that’s a place I don’t want to go. We are not in a place for me to make any demands, and I won’t. But damn, I just want to see him again. I know I will…..and I keep saying patience is my lesson this time. Which is way easier than the lessons of my last two relationships. But come on, I’ve waited a month…isn’t that enough patience?
8. Oh, and the bugs.  I get rid of the bugs for like 2 days and then they show up again.  Florida is bug nursery, they just multiply exponentially.  I am sick of them.  Especially these little tiny things, so tiny I cannot even tell what kind of bug they are, but they can crawl through screens, and I find them on my kitchen counter, despite my best efforts and occasionally one just shows up on my computer screen.  They don’t fly, they are not ants, but they are the size, literally, of the period at the end of this sentence.  Imagine that period making way across your computer screen. It’s more than irritating, because when you go to swipe it off the screen, it makes the lap top flip pages, and leaves fingerprint smudges on the screen.  Grrrr.  Again.
9. I am probably feeling like bitching because….I’m still coming off the Percosets. I am tired of my jaw hurting, which it’s going to do for awhile. I need not to feel responsible for someone’s interpretation or misinterpretation of what I write. I need a good night’s sleep. I’m feeling sorry for myself. I need better bug killer.  I need to get out of the house. I need to take a walk. I guess those last two are the same, lol.

Ok, I think that’s it for this morning. Sorry about my bitchy mood. I’ll probably be fine the rest of the day, since I expelled all this stuff. I will come back later and write about all the good stuff that I’m ever so grateful for.

Love and light, all.