End of Day 3. We are at a hotel, waiting for Chinese food to be delivered. Son had a slight melt-down today. He is SICK of driving. Sick to death of it. He’s driven the whole way so far. Over 1500 miles in 3 days.

He’s ok when the scenery and road are at least interesting. But the last half of today, we are in western Nebraska, and I’m not putting it down, but it’s FLAT. And straight road, and all you see is farm after farm. He’s used to New England, where a road is not straight for more than a couple miles, and it’s very hilly, heavily forested but densely populated so there’s always something to see, exits are never far apart. Sometimes out here in the midwest, you feel like you will never see another town. Not that it’s not beautiful. But it’s the same for miles. I fell asleep, lol. He got sick of driving.

Plus it downpoured for awhile today, that did not make him happy.

However, I have to say the people here are so frigging friendly. I mean seriously. We stopped at a rest area in somewhere, lol, yesterday, Indiana I think. I ordered and was waiting for my food. I had gotten a cup to get water, and was filling it and the only woman behind the counter brought my food over to me. She was so frigging pleasant.

We went into a gas station in Nebraska to use the bathrooms after we filled the car. We walked in and the kid behind the counter said, “Hi! How are you all doin’ today? Are you looking for the restrooms? They’re right there.” and pointed to them. Then when we left the building another employee was on break outside the door and said, “You all have a nice day!”

THAT doesn’t happen in New England, lol.

So, we have settled in for the night. We were really happy we could get something delivered besides pizza.

Tomorrow we should make my son’s new place by noon. Looking forward to the end of this journey and the beginning of a new one for him. His friends are all coming over to help him unpack. It should be fun.

I’m looking forward to seeing the Rocky Mountains. I haven’t seen them since I was about 12 or so. Looking forward to meeting his landlord, and seeing where he’ll be living, and what the town is like. Son just found out that one of his friends from high school will live 4 blocks away from him. I think he’s feeling better about the whole thing. He’s now got a small posse of friends out there.

Time to take a shower and relax.

Love and light.

We have decided that Iowa is much prettier and far less boring to drive than the farmlands of Ohio and Indiana. There are hills!  And the road turns occasionally! Pretty country.  Maybe I’m partial. 😄. I did live here for 12 years.  Like Neil Young’s song “Helpless”, all my changes were here. 

We are good today. My BFF from childhood took us to a great restaurant last night. And fed us quiche from a wonderful bakery this morning. She’s coming to FL in December so I didn’t even have to cry when we left!  

Life is good. Pic and B the top is somewhere west of Des Moines. 

Love and light. 

I did a lot of writing this morning but the hotel internet connection was bad. So here I am flying through Ohio. Our GPS told us “in 325 miles, exit to the right.”  Lol. Ok. I’ll remember that. Lol. 

It’s a gorgeous day.  Couldn’t be nicer. My nerves were undone this morning but now that we’re underway I’m fine. Lovin the 70 mph speed limit.  

Feeling good. Have a sparking day!  

Love and light. 😊

We are safely in our hotel room in far Western PA, on the Ohio border. The day went very well. It was hard for my son leaving town. Really hard. But by the time we got to NY he seemed better, and began to realize he really isn’t losing anyone, not with phones and social media. Not to mention I think all his friends are making plans to come see him. We really enjoyed the drive.

I always think of PA as a very populated state, because, I suppose, I lived on the east coast, and when you think of it you think of Philly, it’s from that perspective. But I-80, which bisects the country from NJ to CA, I think, has miles and miles of road through absolutely unpopulated beautiful mountains. Like 10 miles between exits. We were laughing because we are from such a small state, the exit numbers never go about 80. We got on I-80 in PA and the exit numbers were more than 240, lol. Big state!

We found out we needed to stop every 100 miles or so to take a break and to check the bike rack to make sure it was still tight. I also found out that my son is a really really good driver. Doesn’t speed, sets the cruise control for the limit and lets it go, and he’s so courteous to other drivers.

Tomorrow night we’ll be in Iowa, at my childhood bff’s house. That will be lovely. Hoping we don’t hit a lot of traffic around Cleveland and Chicago. We hit none today. It was great.

Onward. It was a good first day. Love and light, all.

Today’s the day. In a few hours we will be on our way to a new life for my son. I think he’s ready, I think I’m ready. I’m trusting in the universe to guide us both in our life journeys.

This morning I am making a “don’t forget” list, lol. Don’t forget your meds. Don’t forget to lock the door. Don’t forget the bottles of water in the fridge. Don’t forget to throw out the flowers in the vase that are already dead, lol. Don’t forget the directions you printed out. My son asks me why I need to print them out. Because we both have GPS on our phones and he’s so accustomed to listening to GPS….. I said, because I’m old, lol. He laughs. I said, “Remember when we would go on hockey trips? I’d have a whole folder of maps and written directions.” He remembered.

I think I want to lay down some ground rules. Really only one that I can think of at the moment, and that is that if we get lost, which I don’t expect to happen, we won’t get all upset over it. When we used to go on hockey trips, in the days before GPS, his father used to flip the f**k out and we’d all be under so much pressure. It kind of became learned behavior when a turn turned out to be the wrong one, to get all upset.

Other than that, old triggers, I don’t think there will be a problem.

One more “don’t forget”. Don’t forget to breathe and enjoy the trip. I’m so glad we get to stop at my friends house tomorrow night. It will be so good to see her, and have a warm friendly environment after 2 days on the road. Whodda thunk we’d still be such good friends after 50+ years. Dang, I’m lucky.

I keep trying to write a poem, but the clarity of thought I need is not there. Too many mixed emotions. So for now, it will be these updates, as I write them out to wrap my head around them.

I guess it’s time to get moving, get dressed, take care of my “don’t forget” list.

Love and light, everyone.

This morning was so hard, and now, tonight, I am in such a different place. Still know I’m gonna miss him, but not disabled by it. Not morose. Talking with him did me so much good. And then, the gong bath…Oh my….

If you meditate, then you can maybe imagine the state of an intense deep meditation accompanied by many vibrational instruments. It usually starts with bells, or crystal bowls, or both,the gongs come in at a low resonant rumble and slowly the intensity climbs to what we call a tsunami. The vibration of the gongs just fills the room with sound, and the vibrations go through you, not around you. I can’t really describe it, but it facilitates such a deep meditation.

Tonight I had a bit of a time shutting down the mind chatter, just because it’s been on overload now for weeks. Finally, I just went to a place of surrender. I thought, I’ve been surrendering pieces of all this stuff, when the piece became too much to deal with. But why just a piece? Surrender it all. Give it all over to the universe, to God, if you will….just let go of the incessant need to control and know everything will be ok. As if I had any control to begin with.

The universe has never let me down. Every single time I’ve surrendered a problem to it, my answer came immediately and brought me joy. Every. Single. Time. Tonight I just gave it all over, the trip, the separation, our new lives, our relationship as mother and son, the pain, the joy.

And from that I went to gratitude. Just so grateful that the people I have needed have been put in my path, and that for the last 6 or 7 years, I have had the gongs to go to twice a month, at least, to work through probably the hardest, most traumatic events of my life. They have been so instrumental in my healing. I was specifically grateful for the presence of Peter and Linda in my life. (They put on the gong baths, but we are close friends now as well.)

So when it was over, I was teary eyed, but not unhappy. I am actually looking forward to all that is to come, finally, for the first time.

At the end, they always play drums. And then usually some soft bells or something. As they were playing the drums, we could hear them whispering to each other, and then they started laughing, and then the light went on…..

A BAT had gotten in to their house! It was flying around, people were screaming and ducking and laughing…..OMG, it was so funny. We opened the door to the deck, and other doors to the outside, and it would fly down the stairs and back up. When we thought it was trapped elsewhere in their house (big house, maybe 4000 sq. ft.) someone looked up the bat energy/medicine in AnimalSpeak, which happened to be in the room.

I  googled the bat medicine/energy when I got home, because I don’t have AnimalSpeak, and here is what I found on another site (www.shamanicjourney.com).

“Bat’s wisdom includes shamanic death and rebirth, initiation, viewing past lives, pollination of new ideas, transition, understanding grief, the use of vibrational sound, camouflage, invisibility, ability to observe unseen, secrets.”

Geezus!!! Transition, new ideas, initiation, understanding grief, the use of vibrational sound!!! Everyone kept saying it came here for you, Deb. It’s message was for you! Although I’m sure I am not the only one with big changes going on. But the fact that it mentions use of vibrational sound and came in on a gong bath? CRAZY. JUST CRAZY.

There are no coincidences. I am sure that the journey I am undertaking is the right one, that my son and I should both be taking.  Honestly….I think the bat was the response to my surrender.  To send the message that I was heard, and my path is a good one.

Feeling pretty good about things right now.  Really good.  Tomorrow we begin.

Love and light, all.