The new moon is tomorrow night.  Time to set intentions, and review old one.  Plant the seeds and watch them grow.

I woke up this morning at 5:30, which I’ve been doing a lot lately. I was totally rested, got a good 7 or 8 hours sleep. I got up, made a cup of coffee, and checked my email.

There was an email from a friend I made in the online community I belonged to for about 5 years for survivors of abuse, any kind of abuse. She and I had very similar situations, except she is younger and her kids are younger than my son. She still, because her son is a minor, has to deal with the repercussions of his abusive, controlling father, her ex. She needed some help wading through some really tough stuff that her son is dealing with in school. I hope I was able to help her. We both see our exes personality traits in Trump and are extra fearful of him. Like she said, “If he’s angry about the crowd size reporting, what will he do when Vlad disses him? Push a button?” Scary scary man, especially when you have experience with your own sociopath.

I made it to sunrise at the town dock this morning. As I watched the sun come up into a clear blue sky, save one wispy white cloud, I was reminded that the psychic yesterday told me how she loved my mother’s light, it was a rose gold color. I could imagine it, for sure. This morning that was what the sky was, a rose gold color. I felt like it was Mom, saying hi. I kind of did a gratitude meditation when I was there. I was alone, which was weird. Usually there are a few people from the neighborhood there.  This is a picture of sunrise.

Off to have a day of R & R, lol. Love and light.

The weather couldn’t make up its mind today for a long while. After the storms last night, it was downpouring with black clouds, then 10 minutes later the sun was out. Repeat, all morning. And windy! It was really blowing hard!

I drove to my appointment with the guys running the veterans art center in the pouring rain. Realized I need new wiper blades on my car. I have kind of forgotten what it’s like to drive in the rain, lol, it’s such a rare thing here! I met with them, got a feel for what they need done, what my responsibilities would be as treasurer, and got a tour of the center. They have a really nice space, and it serves as a gallery for the vets art work. So many talented artists in the group. It will be interesting to see how they incorporate a writing class into that. The sun came out and went in twice while I was there.

I met a very nice man for lunch out on St. Pete Beach. We seemed to hit it off. Had a nice lunch and a lot of laughs. It was sunny while we ate, and we were leaving, walking to the car, and it began raining again, so we ducked into my car which was close and talked for another hour. We both said we’d like to get together again. I hope I hear from him. It was fun to laugh with someone again.

On the Trump front, he declared the day of his inauguration a national holiday. Really. Unbelievable. Can you spell d i c t a t o r? Wow, he really thinks he’s all that. After a really nice day, that report made me want to throw up. The man is a joke. At least he was just a very minor part of it today.

Love and light everyone

The storms came and went last night. The worst of them were north and south of me, some of them over my sister’s house on the island. I talked to her as they approached. She was unaware of the predicted severity, but most likely wouldn’t have done anything different. She was playing Scrabble, and had gotten out of the pool 15 minutes before because of the darkening sky. I assume they made it through unscathed, as I didn’t hear any reports of serious damage there. I was a little concerned about the tide for her, as she is on a narrow strip of land between two bodies of water. The water was coming up over some of the major highways for a bit. The whole frontal system was moving so fast, at about 60 mph they said, that it blew through very quickly. We had a huge downpour when the wind died, and then it was over.

I have been sleeping really well for a week now, without any sleep aids. Each morning when I awaken at about 5:30 or 6 I realize I slept through the night, maybe waking once but going right back to sleep. I honestly didn’t think it was possible for me to get back to this state. I have been hyper-vigilant for so many years. I’ve had so much conflicted energy and concerns and fears and lists which rolled around in my head and demanded my attention in the middle of the night.

I think the difference is that I’ve been letting go of all expectation. Today I have a lunch date, and that’s all I have. I won’t have more from it until I have more, but I am going to enjoy lunch and meeting someone new. This is how I’m cognizantly approaching most things in my life now, not to expect or even wish for more, just to enjoy what is before me.

I’m also happy to be waking at 6 or so again. I had been so often up in the night that I was sleeping til 7:30 often. I’m a morning person. Waking at 6 allows me to maybe make sunrise at the pier once in awhile, which I miss. I’ll be going to my sister’s tomorrow, and will try to get to sunrise there, where it’s only a short 3 minute walk to the town dock.

I’ve been on FB a lot since Friday, marveling at Cheetoman’s ability to ignore hard cold fact and spew lies. But yesterday I got tired of it. It’s always the same story, and I can only take so much of it before it gets old. I needed to refresh my psyche. I’m not saying it’s not important to stay vigilant and call him on his bs, just that it can’t be a full-time job. It’s just too much darkness, I needed to leave it for awhile.

So I made some jewelry for a couple of hours. It just did me wonders, to make something beautiful and to create. I also restrung an old necklace I’d made for my sister many years ago, which the clasp had broken on. I texted for a long time with a good friend while I was doing it. My workspace is in the corner of my living room, with two windows, and so has wonderful light. Especially when we are having normal Florida sunshine, which we had yesterday morning before the storms blew in. It was the first time I actually used the space as workspace, and I really enjoyed it. Playing my music, creating, talking to friends via text. I’m planning to make it a bigger part of my life. I didn’t take any pictures of the pendant I made, but I will, so I can get it up on my Etsy shop, and I’ll post a pic here. It’s a cabachon of blue lace agate, with bronze wire. I chose bronze because it compliments the brown imperfections in the stone, which is a powder blue.

Life has been peaceful, and rich and full lately. People are coming into my life rapidly, maybe leaving rapidly too, lol, we’ll see. But I’m content to think I’ve made new friends. This morning I am going to meet with the director of the Veterans Art Center so he can show me around, and give me a better idea of what they need from me in terms of being the treasurer. I think it’s just a matter of balancing the checkbook, and recording the receipts from the one debit card that they use. Just a spreadsheet, pretty simple.

I’m making a pot roast today in my crock pot to take to my sister’s tomorrow, so I guess I better go get started on that. Hope you all have a lovely day.

Love and light.

There was a candle in the window
It burned for the one true love
Waiting, flickering, hoping
The painting on the wall
was just hanging there,
recording the gyrations of the flame.

The flame jumped and flickered.
It lit the room
And then dimmed.
It was orange, then blue
Then the faintest yellow.
And then, it was out.

She’d kept that candle for years
To guide that one love back
But he never came
The painting recorded the truth
The flame illumined the path of another
Who found the way to her heart.

The candle became obsolete
A beacon unnecessary
For the one who wanted to find her.
Extinguished.

By Deborah E. Dayen

Painting by Diana Henley, via Google Images

Someone just put this up on FB, and I have to share it here.  This is the town that I lived in for 40 years, and raised my son in.  The town I left to move to Florida.  The lake you will see is the lake I lived on for 30 years, til I left my ex.  It is an awesome small New England town.  It is celebrating its 250th anniversary.  Old by US standards.

I am sitting in my living room, listening to the wind gust around 40 mph. The clouds are dark gray and racing by. We’re under a tornado watch til later this evening. The sustained winds on the frontal lines are 70 – 80 mph. I’m not terribly concerned about it, but I did bring my deck furniture into the house. They closed down the Skyway Bridge across Tampa Bay.

I went to a play this afternoon that a friend was in. I made arrangements with my male friend from open mic night to meet there. The play was Parfumerie, and it was pretty funny! I thoroughly enjoyed it. The friend who was in the play was so happy to see us there after the show was over.

This morning I went downtown to buy the ticket to the play because it was $2 cheaper if I bought it ahead at a store down there. Then I stopped next door at an outdoor cafe where my friend the keyboard player was playing for brunch. He said he’s coming to open mic this week. Wanted to know if he’d be intruding. I said, nooooo, lots of the people I sit with perform, they would be happy to meet another musician. I still don’t know if he’s married or not, but I guess I’ll find out. We’re friends, anyway. Happy to have friends.

One of my best friends from up north is tentatively planning to come down around St. Patty’s day. Very excited about that! It will be so much fun to have her here!!! And my younger sister is coming on Feb. 7, for a week. So excited to have people here! LOL!! I’m gonna try to get my son down here end of March for a few days.

So, busy day, busy week coming up. Busy and no stress, lol. Once we get through the next 4 or 5 hours of tornado watches.

Love and light, all.